A Revelation about Requests

So once I again I apologise for letting this blog get completely ignored :(  Hopefully, I will be a little more diligent in keeping it up this coming semester.  Now for the real stuff.  This past weekend there has been some pretty hard things going on in my life.  Nothing life threating or globaly earth shattering, just some personal things that were completely unexpected.  Through all of this it has been hard to figure out what God's will is for very specific areas of my life.  I spent much time in "prayer" (the quotations are there for a reason) and still didn't have complete confidence in what I thought to be God's will.  If you asked how certain I was, I would most likey have said somewhere between 80 and 90 percent sure of what I thought God's will to be.  That 10 to 20 percent can make you become quite fearful and timid when trying to act on that type of confidence.  Tonight I started reading through Spurgeon's "The Power of Prayer in a Believer's Life".  The first chapter starts off with a reminder that prayer is in essence coming before the throne of God, hence we are coming before a king.  Not only a king but THE king.  Of course I know all this, but some of his statements brought me such conviction about how I had been praying.  I had been so afraid to actual say let Your will be done regardless of what I want.  So I knew that I needed to take care of that and first ask for forgiveness then actually get down to business about asking what His will really was with a humble and lowly attitude, willing to do what He actually said.  It was the strangest time of prayer I've ever had.  After getting things right, I was expecting to struggle with letting go of my "right" to what happens in my life.  I was expecting God to take something away, and was preparing for a long struggle to give it over and to beg God to let it stay.  As soon as I had made things right, there was a complete confidence of knowing His will.  A totally confidence that this thing in my life was exactly what He wanted, and that it was something that would stay confounded me.  While this is what I had leaned towards as God's will it now become completely sure in my heart.  Then it felt like i just stood there in the courts of heaven with my mouth open, speechless.  "God that was too easy, I was supposed to have to fight for that" were my only thoughts, yet that confidence remained in my heart.  I ended my prayer and just sat there still baffled, yet the confidence remained.  IF it was enough that this prayer session took place, after a divine facebook status of a friend who had posted verses i really needed to hear (yes see God can use facebook to help His children), I had on some music and had the player set on shuffle and the song that was on when i ended my prayer was centered around the concept "Rest in me".  God truly does hear and answer prayers!  How is your attitude when you come before his throne?  Is it flippant and whimsical?  Do you try to force your will on God?  Or do you truly see Him as the king on the throne of Heaven itself who controls everything, yourself included.  He says come in boldness as one of His children, but even a prince is subject to proper court etiquett, and beyond that he is still confined to the King's wishes.  Are you humble before Him?  Do you have the heart attitude of being willing to accept His answer whatever it is?