A Revelation about Requests

So once I again I apologise for letting this blog get completely ignored :(  Hopefully, I will be a little more diligent in keeping it up this coming semester.  Now for the real stuff.  This past weekend there has been some pretty hard things going on in my life.  Nothing life threating or globaly earth shattering, just some personal things that were completely unexpected.  Through all of this it has been hard to figure out what God's will is for very specific areas of my life.  I spent much time in "prayer" (the quotations are there for a reason) and still didn't have complete confidence in what I thought to be God's will.  If you asked how certain I was, I would most likey have said somewhere between 80 and 90 percent sure of what I thought God's will to be.  That 10 to 20 percent can make you become quite fearful and timid when trying to act on that type of confidence.  Tonight I started reading through Spurgeon's "The Power of Prayer in a Believer's Life".  The first chapter starts off with a reminder that prayer is in essence coming before the throne of God, hence we are coming before a king.  Not only a king but THE king.  Of course I know all this, but some of his statements brought me such conviction about how I had been praying.  I had been so afraid to actual say let Your will be done regardless of what I want.  So I knew that I needed to take care of that and first ask for forgiveness then actually get down to business about asking what His will really was with a humble and lowly attitude, willing to do what He actually said.  It was the strangest time of prayer I've ever had.  After getting things right, I was expecting to struggle with letting go of my "right" to what happens in my life.  I was expecting God to take something away, and was preparing for a long struggle to give it over and to beg God to let it stay.  As soon as I had made things right, there was a complete confidence of knowing His will.  A totally confidence that this thing in my life was exactly what He wanted, and that it was something that would stay confounded me.  While this is what I had leaned towards as God's will it now become completely sure in my heart.  Then it felt like i just stood there in the courts of heaven with my mouth open, speechless.  "God that was too easy, I was supposed to have to fight for that" were my only thoughts, yet that confidence remained in my heart.  I ended my prayer and just sat there still baffled, yet the confidence remained.  IF it was enough that this prayer session took place, after a divine facebook status of a friend who had posted verses i really needed to hear (yes see God can use facebook to help His children), I had on some music and had the player set on shuffle and the song that was on when i ended my prayer was centered around the concept "Rest in me".  God truly does hear and answer prayers!  How is your attitude when you come before his throne?  Is it flippant and whimsical?  Do you try to force your will on God?  Or do you truly see Him as the king on the throne of Heaven itself who controls everything, yourself included.  He says come in boldness as one of His children, but even a prince is subject to proper court etiquett, and beyond that he is still confined to the King's wishes.  Are you humble before Him?  Do you have the heart attitude of being willing to accept His answer whatever it is? 

Christ's Recession-proof Riches

So I will start of the new  season of posting with a thought inspired by an old draft for a post.  The title of that was Bankrupt but for God's Riches.  This thought brought back some of the lyrics of a song that I have been teaching my highschool choir.  One line from Jesus My Lord, My God, My All is "poor down the riches of your grace"    I actually asked my highschoolers what they thought that phrase meant and they came up with some pretty good answers.  Lets  just start with some of the obvious answers, because God's grace I have forgiveness of my sins!!!  To think that almighty creator God sent his son to die for me, as unworthy as I am, what an awesome thing!  To think that one day I will be able to std completely justified before a holy and perfect God because of God's grace.  So now that the really big obvious one is out there, how about some of the "every day" riches?  Its easy to forget about the every day blessings that God gives, whether it be the air we breathe, or the provision for our needs.  How about the strength to make it through hard times and circumstances?  Or the comfort of the Spirit when something is painful or hard to go through?  To think that Jesus Christ is right now in heaven making intercessions for me?  God's love for me didnt stop at the cross!!  He STILL loves me!!!  Even though I fail Him, He still loves me and provides for me.  Now sometimes that love comes in ways that seem kind of weird or contradictory from our viewpoint, but even our santification is important to Him.  He loves me and wants me to be holy, not just in heaven, but to live holy and pure right now!  Well I know this is an abrupt ending but I need to head off to choir practice, so please keep checking up on me to see if i keep posting :)

The Halt of the Hiatus

So I havent posted on here in almost two years and I finally decided to get back to putting up post on this site. I am going to try to get at least one up each week, possibly more depending on how the week goes with school and all. As the first post on here says, this blog is really about what Gods is teaching me through my daily bible study and prayer times, so if you see that its been awhile since the last post, send me a message and ask me whats going on. Well with all that said, I will get on to the real posts :)